How does JILL handle trust? Is it all about staying positive, as so many people have been taught in New Age?
- So many hard-working spiritual seekers today are working diligently to stay positive, avoid negative people, identify psychic vampires and narcissists.
- Or is it more as Fundamentalist Christians feel, knowing they have been saved, so nothing can hurt them now? (And yet perpetually wary of being tricked by Satan.)
- In my work with clients, I continue to meet folks who have developed a spiritual addiction related to guidance, whether healers or seekers or Christians or New Agers.
Whenever possible, they are paying attention to signs, synchronicity, energy, or external validation.
If there’s a conflict, they ask for guidance. What would Jesus do? Where are the signs and meaningful coincidences? Will it be possible to wait until the clock shows precisely 11:11:11 so that thinking will be inspired? How will energies alert that seeker to the presence of danger?
Seeking so hard to find Cosmic subtext, disturbing patterns develop within that hard-working individual, something very problematic at the level of auric modeling.
Working so hard in one of the three ways noted here, the person has withdrawn from human life, become ineffective and weak as an earth personality. It’s like wearing a sign on the level of auras, a sign that reads “Excellent victim potential.”
Paths like these express great trust in angels or God or Jesus. Partly (to my thinking) something else is displayed as well: An extreme lack of trust in their own human intelligence and street smarts.
So I was very curious when, yesterday, a question about trust came to the blog. What about trust on one’s path to Enlightenment? Would trust change along with all the other aspects of consciousness?
After you read today’s article, Blog-Buddies, I hope you will share your experiences on the theme of trust. Hasn’t yours changed, or evolved, over the years?
The question about trust was addressed to JILL, as a recently Enlightened Blog-Buddy who has generously volunteered to answer questions. I was so curious to read Jill’s perspective, and generously she responded right away.
JILL’s response deserves its own standing as a Guest Post, so here comes the sequence.
“FRANCINE” asked about trust because her trust has changed
In my healing journey of the last year, I have changed enormously in my trust of people.
Makes me wonder, JILL, if there is anything you would feel comfortable sharing about your trust of people and how it has developed.
I mean spontaneous trust, mind you. Not how you handled people once they were in relationships with you, saying and doing whatever.
I’m curious about your showing up as yourself, daring to be with them as they show up. Know what I mean?
How trust changes after Enlightenment
JILL’s response begins here:
Very good question. The trust issue is huge for me. Trust, for me, has to do with vulnerability. When I felt most vulnerable like during the divorce I was most distrustful and in need of feeling in control in any way I could with my life. I was suspect of everyones motives and fearful all the time.
Now that my identity is with God and I see everyone as God, trust is not an issue at all. I am aware that most people act on the level of ego and, therefore, are not capable of being completely honest or trustworthy at that level. I do use human like caution and means for protection like legal contracts and not walking down dark alleys at night.
I am able to see everyone as either aware of who they are or not and simply act accordingly with that information. When people are not aware of who they really are, I can still communicate with who they really are and trust that they will respond in kind on the level of spirit. But, on the level of ego they may not be aware at all and may even want to intentionally harm me in some way.
I was at an opening for a local restaurant the other evening and it was quite crowded. Usually I would not enjoy that sort of thing at all, but that evening was totally different for me. I was not only comfortable, I felt totally joyful and sparkling and like I was moving around in a sea of love.
I was aware that most of the people were not aware of that, but I felt I was communicating with them on the level of spirit and everything moved like a synchronous dance. It was very fun.
A contrasting experience, despite being Enlightened
Then, two evenings ago I encountered some old friends who had betrayed and tried to harm me and my feelings were different.
I was aware of the old hurt and disappointments and felt sad. I wished I could communicate to them what I know now, but I know they dont want to know. They are all users of drugs and alcohol and the air is thick around them.
At the same time, I know they cant hurt me now, so I dont distrust them.
It is like being aware of two different levels of reality at the same time. But, my main reality is that we are all God and only Love while still living and dealing with the ego reality on earth.
Its still new enough for me that it is kind of weird. It is like the Buddha said when asked how he is different. He said simply, I am awake.
And, I know that most everyone else is just not aware, yet, that they can neither hurt nor be hurt.