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Cord-cutting at an intersection that changed my life, a Guest Post by Max

 

Blog-Buddies, Max can speak for himself. So I will let this health professional take it away. Let him, and me, know if you have any questions about Max’s….

Energy Spirituality Case Study

Looking At The Intersection Between Physical Health and Astral-Level STUFF.

I recently had a session with Rose that had an unexpectedly powerful effect.

I’ve had many life-changing sessions with Rose over the last three years, so I don’t use the phrase “unexpectedly powerful” lightly.

Very early on in my career as an acupuncturist, specializing in physical healing, I had a patient who experienced temporary aggravation of his pain after a treatment.

Healing crises with holistic treatments

Negative treatment reactions or “healing crises” rarely happen to my patients, and they are usually the result of misdiagnosis resulting in overtreatment. (This normally occurs when the patient turns out to be unexpectedly frail.)

Usually, the patient comes back, tells me he or she got worse, I try something lighter, and he or she gets better. It’s a little embarrassing for me, but generally an easily recoverable error.

On this occasion, the patient (I’ll follow the naming convention at this blog and give him the fake name “JOE”) was not frail. Diagnostically, everything indicated a body capable of easily handling strong treatment. He was a big fellow and in apparently good health. I treated him to the best of my ability.

A few days later, I received a furious phone call from JOE. Some aggravation of muscular pain had made it dif?cult for him to enjoy his weekend.

I was morti?ed. JOE was the last person I would have expected to have such a severe reaction. At the time, I had no other theoretical models for explaining this result, so I assumed that I had made colossal errors in diagnosis and treatment.

Geesh, could this get worse?

It was at this point in the conversation, when I was feeling like a complete idiot, that JOE threatened to sue me.

This was my First time at the rodeo” with litigation threats, and I wasn’t sure what to do. So I just apologized profusely until he hung up.

Then I slumped back into my chair, broke into a cold sweat, and spent the next 20 minutes feeling like I had been run over by a train.

During this 20 minutes my intellect went into overdrive, analyzing every angle of the situation, replaying every part of our interactions ad nauseum — trying to make the pieces ?t.

Soon after this, my physical health went into rapid decline. My energy levels went through the ?oor. I began to experience overwhelming nausea, vomiting and headaches upon waking in the morning. (Funnily enough, this set of acute symptoms only seemed to happen on work days.)

Mild exercise made me ill. Sex became exhausting. Any mildly stressful event drastically increased the chance that I would wake up feeling awful the next morning.

My gut became very sensitive. When I woke up sick, I didn’t just feel nauseous. There was an emotional component to it that never made sense: A heavy, bleak, depressed feeling, almost suicidal.

The prospect of going into work ?lled me with a kind of existential dread.

Not magnetizing money, either

I lost a lot of money during this period. Days when I had many patients were the days I was most likely to wake up too sick to get out of bed. Unfortunately, there are no sick-leave bene?ts for sole proprietors like me.

My illness conducted many short-term but cumulatively expensive surgical strikes on my income.

At one point, my immune system became so depressed that a relatively simple viral gut infection spread to my heart, and I was hospitalized with pericarditis.

For those who haven’t experienced pericarditis, I can tell you that it feels a LOT like a heart attack. Even after I was discharged, chest pain and tightness persisted for months.

At this point I had to make radical changes to how I lived.

  • I reduced my clinic hours.
  • I stopped doing most housework.
  • I did virtually no exercise.
  • I ate extremely carefully.
  • I began taking daily herbal and acupuncture treatments for months at a time.

Treatments that would normally be weekly affairs for healthier people became a daily necessity just to stay a?oat. I tried a lot of different things in the hope of a cure, with little success. I started entertaining the notion that I would never recover.

Could it help, cutting a cord of attachment?

I began to think about whether or not Rose could help me. Although Rose is not a physical healer, I was willing to try anything even tangentially related at this point. I had a hunch that STUFF related to con?dence issues at work was a worthwhile area of investigation.

During an Energy Spirituality session with Rose, I indicated that I had a candidate for cutting a cord of attachment, this patient JOE.

If you are not familiar with the concept of cutting cords of attachment, I strongly recommend you read Rose’s FAQ about cord-cutting.

Now that I know you know what a cord of attachment is, I’m going to walk you through this one of mine.

Overview of my session of Energy Spirituality

Here come the Energy Spirituality session’s “Baseball card” statistics.

Session Intention: To Have More Con?dence At Work

Candidate for Cutting a Cord of Attachment: JOE

Amount of Background Information Rose Received Before Cutting the Cord: Basics about JOE’s phone call. Nothing about my physical health problems.

Cord Yuckiness Index (How bad is this cord?): 10 out of 10 possible points

Number Of Incidents In Cord Dialogue: 2

Cord Location: Forehead, with extensive interior roots reaching into my gastrointestinal system. (This is Very Important).

And, ?nally, the most interesting part, the…

Cord Dialogue

Cord Dialogue Sequence is part of what Rose recorded when doing the 12 Steps to Cut Cords of Attachment(R). After she wrote it down, she read it out to me for validation. Because she gave me an electronic recording of the session, I was able to transcribe the whole set of Cord Items.

“Cord Dialogue” means what, exactly, is the nature of the pathological pattern contained in the cord.

Cord Dialogue is a sequence of energies between client (like me) and the cordee (like Joe).  This sequence is what repeats in a person’s aura and subconscious mind 24/7, usually for the rest of a person’s life. Here is what I used to have.

First Incident in the Cord Dialogue: Phone call with JOE.

1. (JOE): Threatening to sue me.

2. (Me): Scared.

3. (Me): “My sacred work is in danger.”

4. (Me): “My livelihood/human life is in danger.”

5. (Me): Feeling guilty.

6. (Me): Wondering “Could it be my fault?”

7. (Me): “I know better” but still scared.

8. (Me): Desperate to handle the situation on the phone well.

9. (JOE): Rage.

10. (JOE): Vindictive. Actively trying to exact punishment. Cruel intent.

11. (JOE): Hatred (A part of the underlying imbalance that was being corrected by treatment).

12. (JOE): Struggling to rebalance — using hatred to jump-start his old way of being.

That’s what Rose told me. My reaction?

Item 11 was a major learning experience for me. I am aware that some acupuncturists primarily focus on emotional or spiritual healing. I don’t.

I’m sure that some emotional healers who use acupuncture get good results, but this application never resonated with me. Once I was exposed to Rose’s work in the ?eld of Energy Spirituality, using physically-oriented means for emotional/spiritual healing began to look (to me) like using a wrench to eat soup.

Sure, you can do it, but it might be a bit slower than a tool that is custom-built for the job. (And seriously, just go get a spoon out of the cutlery drawer!)

Before I continue, for any acupuncturists who may be reading, I want to acknowledge that Chinese Medical Theory considers the relationship between emotions and physical illness to be extremely important. However, I do consider emotional issues in my diagnostic process — I just don’t hold myself out as an emotional healer.

Except for the empath factor

I did not realize something Very Important:

Despite having no intention to provide signi?cant emotional healing, I was providing it anyway.

According to Rose, who has done aura reading research on me in some of our sessions, this is inherent in my work as an acupuncturist. It is apparently not inherent in every acupuncturist’s work to the same extent, but it is in mine.

I don’t fully understand the mechanics of this yet. (This might be worth a research session with Rose, I think).

The practical upshot of this?

It turns out that I did not misdiagnose or overtreat JOE from a Chinese Medicine perspective. What I did was to unintentionally move large amounts of hate and STUFF out of JOE. I didn’t know this would happen, so I couldn’t warn him about it.

Unprepared, JOE wasn’t ready for it; he found it so troubling an experience that it manifested as two days of physical pain and in?ammation.

Because I didn’t know about this way of explaining some negative treatment reactions, I just assumed that I had made a terrible mistake. We’ll look at how that played out in the second half of the cord of attachment

Before we ?nish with this incident, let’s consider what JOE got out of all this:

I would say that JOE had two major objectives during this phonecall.

  • The ?rst was punitive (See Item 10) — JOE blamed me for his pain, and he wanted to make me hurt as well.

Regarding that, what can I say but, “Well done JOE!”? “Mission Accomplished. You got me, JOE. You hurt me roughly a thousand times as much as you think I hurt you. A gold star effort.”

What was JOE’s other objective, though? Let’s look again at the last item of Cord Dialogue in this portion of my ex-cord of attachment:

  • 12. (JOE): Struggling to rebalance — using hatred to jump-start his old way of being.

JOE wasn’t ready to lose all that hate. JOE needed his hatred back in him to feel comfortable. (Although, I think his de?nition of comfortable might be a bit of a worry ;-))

By deliberately menacing me, JOE found a way to re-establish the hatred in his body. I don’t know if he was fully successful in meeting his second objective.

For his sake, and for the sake of everyone he is close to, I hope he mostly failed on this one.

Second Incident in the Cord Dialogue: The 20 minutes I spent slumped in my chair after the phonecall

13. (Me): Analyzing and replaying with my intellect. Trying to ?gure out “WTF!?”

14. (Me): Trying to understand every aspect including, “What I did wrong.”

15. (Me): Trying not to let this bother me.

16. (Me): My mind chugging along on its own: A combination of: anxiety, intellect, no ready answer to the problem.

17. (Me): Bringing back the subtle connection made during radial-artery pulse diagnosis.

Note: I have several empath talents. If you are not sure exactly what I mean by empath, please read Rose’s FAQ on Empath Empowerment(R).

Empath gifts I have that are relevant to this case study are Physical Intuition, Physical Oneness, Emotional Oneness, and Spiritual Oneness. I am also a Medical Empath, which is different from the better known term, “medical intuitive,” a term made famous by Carolyn Myss.

Some of my diagnostic procedures, particularly pulse diagnosis, can trigger unskilled empath merge. The way empath gifts work, when one switches on, all of them switch on. The attempt to gain knowledge as a Medical Empath was especially likely to switch on the empath gifts for me, back in the day.

Despite the physical nature of the procedures themselves, remember, my gifts included:

  • Emotional Oneness (Taking on the emotional experience of the other person and experiencing that as though the feelings belonged to me) and
  • Spiritual Oneness (Taking on the energetic and spiritual plight of JOE, which I then translated into language of my deepest existential pain, while having the energies reverberate through my subconscious mind and aura).
  • Having the pain process, and stuck energies, lodge in my digestive system.

At the time this incident got into my cord of attachment to JOE, I was an unskilled empath and unaware of how frequently (and for how long a duration) I was merging with my very ill patients. This was another MAJOR factor in my very poor health at the beginning of my career.

18. (Me): Taking on some of the other hatred patterns elsewhere in his system.

19. (Me): A process-related Cord Item. (Most Cord Items simply have content, but sometimes a Cord Item contains a mechanism, what Rose sometimes calls an “energetic subroutine.”) This Cord Item was about a cord-speci?c vulnerability which allowed the extensive interior roots of the cord to form inside my digestive organs.

This pattern was a sequence that involved:

  • My feeling guilty
  • A desire to make restitution/expiation
  • Receiving JOE’s rage on an ongoing basis, up to a ton per day

Also related, I’m sure, were my lack of empath skills at the time this Cord Item was installed. Plus I lacked other skills of energetic hygiene, e.g., No skills yet for Spiritual Cleansing and Protection — again, I have included another FAQ at the Rose Rosetree website if you don’t know what I mean by this last bit.

Here’s a revolting reminder

Again, for those new to cords of attachment, as you read the numbered Cord Dialogue items, remember that this sequence (with all of its attendant negative emotions) played out in my subconscious mind and also in my digestive organs at least once a day.

On the days where it made me ill, in hindsight, the sequence in that cord of attachment would have replayed several times a day.

And now for the good part

Despite the fact that Energy Spirituality is not designed to treat physical health issues, nor was physical healing speci?cally sought in the session, by cutting this cord of attachment, Rose indirectly facilitated a major physical healing.

In this case, the nature of the astral debris combined with its distribution throughout my physical organs, created a raft of physical symptoms that could only be cured via spiritual means — removing the energetic STUFF where it kept repeating within me, 24/7.

Logical consequences of this cord-cutting

In the month since Rose facilitated cutting this cord of attachment, my energy levels have shot back up. My capacity for work has increased enormously. The nausea and headaches have stopped completely, despite a newly-increased clinical workload (and signi?cant resumption of housework).

I have worked with Rose to develop the skills and understanding to close off the vulnerability that exacerbated the impact of this cord of attachment to do such devastating damage.

As an acupuncturist, I also now prepare my patients more thoroughly for the possibility that they may experience signi?cant emotional releasing (or temporary aggravation of their complaint) as a result of treatment.

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  1. 1
    Linda Stone says:

    Dear Rose,

    Max has very eloquently expressed a very powerful Energy Spirituality healing.

    I have worked as an acupuncturist, body worker and energy worker for 26 years. To be quite frank, in my studies and experience, physical healing begat spiritual and emotional healing as well as the other way around.

    Over-excercising, over-focus on the physical body is detrimental to one’s development.

    Over-mental, or over-cerebral use, causes imbalance as well.

    Spiritual addiction is another culprit in wellness.

    Energetic literacy is an amazing way to attend to spiritual and emotional imbalance. It is my opinion that until each of the three areas of being human are addressed true wellness is elusive.

    Acupuncture or traditional Oriental Medicine has stressed and addressed the balance of body, mind, and spirit for at least 5,000 years. Many of the ancient texts dealt exclusively with the spirit and the mind.

    My Chinese Medicine teacher often said, “Must have live patient in order to heal them. Save patient’s life, then bring into balance.”

    In the last 100 years, as western medicine pervades, much of what is taught in acupuncture schools is allopathic in nature to dovetail into our present so-called “Alternative medicine.”

    I have been called an alternative medicine person for 26 years. I think that allopathic medicine is the alternative.

    Allopathic medicine is the medicine of fixing the end products of a lifetime of imbalance.

    Western medicine may be heroic medicine, and it can save one’s life, but it cannot give you a life.

    I believe what I am doing as an acupuncture practitioner, as well as using studying techniques of Energy Spirituality, that I am practicing medicine and healing as it is meant to be practiced. Balancing the body, the mind, and the spirit.

  2. 2
    Jill Erin says:

    Max,

    Thank you for sharing this very personal experience so eloquently and thoroughly here. It is very instructive on many levels and I will reread it to mine it for all the nuances.

    I spent over 25 years in allopathic medicine as a medical lab tech and Critical Care Nurse. Linda is so right in her assessment of allopathic medicine and the western mindset toward health and wellness. After leaving nursing I took three years training in Chinese Medical Herbology and was deeply affected by the holistic nature of that system. It was a complete paradigm shift for me.

    Max, thank you for sharing your experience of Spiritual Healing from the perspective of a physical healer. Anyone practicing in the field of physical healing, I believe, comes to the understanding of the limits of that system when it doesn’t take into account the emotional and spiritual Being being treated – eventually. That was my experience, anyway, when practicing as a nurse. Most doctors, nurses and others didn’t know how to express that, but would acknowledge that, ultimately, it is the clients choice of whether to heal or not that determines the final outcome. That knowledge is what allowed me to stay in Critical Care Nursing for about 15 years without getting “burned out”.

    Best to you on your continued healing and learning. And, of course, Thanks to Rose for her courageous research and sharing in the field of Spiritual Healing.

  3. 3
    Reader on the Potomac says:

    Thank you so much for sharing this story. It was very helpful for understanding this very little known but very powerful phenomeon. It made me think of the chapter in Gavin de Becker’s THE GIFT OF FEAR on people who don’t let go. He wasn’t talking about energy, just stalkers in the real world, but there are some fascinating analogies.

  4. 4
    Rachel says:

    Max, what a great guest post!

    The implications are stunning and it’s all very fascinating.

    I don’t know anything about acupuncture but I’ve been pondering the connections recently between problems to do with the body and STUFF that’s in the aura.

    So I loved reading this, thank you.

  5. 5
    Grace S. says:

    Max, what a wonderful, ensightful post.
    Thank you for sharing your experiences.

    I also immediately recovered from MAJOR health issues after a session.

  6. 6

    You’re welcome, GRACE S. It does happen sometimes, but as a side effect.

    The different type of session I do, Soul Energy Awakening (a.k.a. Energy Release Regression Therapy) is the type people choose when it is a physical problem and medical causes have been checked out already.

    I’m so glad you had a good experience with that more unusual side-effect sort of healing. 🙂

  7. 7

    GRACE S., I’m also going to copy a comment you placed elsewhere on the blog:

    “would you also mind clarifying the distinction between how we obtain psychic coercion? It’s a subtlety that I’m not able to put my finger on. (thanks!)

    ROSE, would you also mind clarifying the distinction between how we obtain psychic coercion? It’s a subtlety that I’m not able to put my finger on. (thanks!)

    This is a thread started by SOPHIA, here: https://www.rose-rosetree.com/blog/2010/10/23/spiritual-cleansing-protection-quiz-energetic-literacy/

    GRACE S., I am going to invite you to re-read Comment 25 there. That’s as detailed an answer as I consider appropriate for this blog.

    Glad the topic matters to you. It’s important!

  8. 8

    Of course, thanks so much to all of you who have commented so far, LINDA STONE and JILL ERIN and RACHEL and READER ON THE POTOMAC.

    I have heard of that very important book by Gavin De Becker, READER… A great shout-out!

  9. 9
    Max says:

    Thanks everybody for their very kind words. I am very keen to follow up with individual responses as soon as I have time, but for now – thank you.

  10. 10
    Rene says:

    Wow! Thanks for taking the time to write this post. Really informative.

  11. 11
    Max says:

    Hi Linda,

    Thanks for your comment.

    I am curious to know what Energy Spirituality techniques you are using along with acupuncture?

    Is it Empath Empowerment/Spiritual Cleansing & Protection (to protect you while you do acupuncture) or are you also actively using Energy Spirituality techniques on your patients?

    Do you combine acupuncture and Energy Spirituality in your sessions, or do you use them in separate sessions?

  12. 12
    Max says:

    Hi Jill,

    Thank you for your kind words!

    As regards making the choice to heal – I would be very interested in hearing you expand on this a little more.

    For instance – it seems to me that if a person has enormous amounts of STUFF, that it’s more difficult for them to exercise free will/choice.

    It seems like the people that most need to make the choice to heal, would find it the hardest to do so?

    So – if you have the time, I would love to hear your thoughts on how a health professional can best help people to make good choices with their health.

  13. 13

    MAX, such great questions. I want to step in here, if I might, as the one tasked with maintaining quality in how Energy Spirituality is presented.

    Much as I dream of having acupuncturists, therapists and others use techniques of Energy Spirituality along with their other skill sets, I ought to make something clear.

    I do NOT recommend using techniques of Energy Spirituality as a healing professional UNLESS and UNTIL you have completed my Energy Spirituality Mentoring Program. Linda is an example of someone who is studying in depth; she wasn’t kidding in that part of her comment. 🙂

    Using skills of Energetic Literacy, like Skilled Empath Merge and Aura Reading Research and Face Reading — that is fine.

    But there is way more to using Energy Spirituality on a professional level than one might surmise from being a client.

  14. 14

    Incidentally, I am aware that in the current edition of “Cut Cords of Attachment” I do encourage people to go out and facilitate cutting cords of attachment for family members and friends.

    In that edition, I was not clear enough that more professional training is needed before adding that skill set to other professional work.

    Future editions will make that clearer.

  15. 15
    Max says:

    Hi Rose,

    I understand. I appreciate the clarifications!

  16. 16
    Max says:

    Thanks, Reader On The Potomac!

    I very much enjoyed reading The Gift Of Fear many years ago.

    I haven’t thought about it seriously for a little while now, so thank you for reminding me!

    Rachel, Rene: Thank you!

    Grace S: Thanks, and congratulations on your own healing!

  17. 17
    Julie says:

    I really empathize, Max, with your description of how the threat of a lawsuit felt.

    I’ve been to that rodeo myself, though probably not with the level of rage that you encountered.

    Good thing you cut that cord!

    Thanks for your detailed and very high quality post here.

    I appreciate your ability to language things that are very subtle, and to do it so adeptly.

  18. 18
    Jordan says:

    Max, I bet you gained a lot of compassion for your clients who are sick or in pain through your own illness. Good job getting through it!

  19. 19
    Max says:

    Hi Jordan,

    Ha, did I ever!

    I have long had a particularly soft spot for people with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and similar persistent exhaustion issues. I caught a febrile infectious disease in my late teens and was flattened by the resulting postviral syndrome for about four years. That certainly gave me great sympathy for people with those conditions. 

    During the time this cord was present,  it was as if my postviral syndrome was back and on steroids (and experiencing roid rage 🙂 )

    I am very lucky in that my particular acupuncture skillset (and those experiences) has made me quite effective at treating chronic fatigue syndrome now. My strike rate is pretty good there.

    I certainly went through other compassion-generating experiences earlier in my career. I went through a long phase where:

    1. I would study a particular syndrome pattern in a textbook,
    2. Several new patients would appear at my clinic with this syndrome pattern,
    3. I would treat them, doing my unskilled empath routine,
    4. I would develop the signs and symptoms of the syndrome pattern.

    Fascinating! 

    Extremely educational, this period of directly experiencing these ailments I studied. 

    I learned a lot, very quickly.

    It was also awful and gross and terrible and I never plan to do it again.

     Thanks for reading my post!

  20. 20
    Max says:

    Hi Julie,

    It’s a nasty little threat, isn’t it?

    Prior to this experience, I had always imagined litigation threats (from people who had no real legal case) to be empty words; petty, petulant, powerless bleatings .

    I had no idea how powerful such a threat could be. 

    I am now of the opinion that a “mere” threat can, in some instances, function as a fully-realised assault.

    Thanks for your kind words about my writing!

  21. 21
    Jill Erin says:

    Hi Max,

    [Snip: The inspired words that follow have become their own Guest Post. Lookee here: https://www.rose-rosetree.com/blog/2012/08/28/stuff-energy-spirituality-jill-erin/#more-7130 ]

    Max, I wish you Blessings as you continue your practice of healing others and yourself. You are a beautiful Being!

  22. 22
    Primmie says:

    Max, thank you so much for sharing your experience here. I’m very happy for you that your health improved so profoundly once the cord was cut.

  23. 23
    Max says:

    Thank you Primmie!

  24. 24
    Anabela says:

    Dear Max,

    Thank you for sharing your courageous story. I hope you are thriving now. Even though I am writing many months after your post, what I have experienced recently echoes many elements of your story.

    [Note: Blog-Buddies, the rest of ANABELA’s wonderful comment was moved to a more current post: “Street Smarts for a New Age Consumer about Cutting Cords of Attachment.” Use this link to see the rest.]

  25. 25
    Adam McIntosh says:

    Thanks Anabela! I’m glad Rose was able to help you in this way too!

    I outed myself as Max somewhere else on the blog but I don’t think I ever did it at this page.

    At the time I was all hand-wringy about my patients finding this post, hence the pseudonym. Now I’m not bothered by the idea.

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