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Energy Spirituality Case Study
Looking At The Intersection Between Physical Health and Astral-Level STUFF.
I recently had a session with Rose that had an unexpectedly powerful effect.
I’ve had many life-changing sessions with Rose over the last three years, so I don’t use the phrase “unexpectedly powerful” lightly.
Very early on in my career as an acupuncturist, specializing in physical healing, I had a patient who experienced temporary aggravation of his pain after a treatment.
Healing crises with holistic treatments
Negative treatment reactions or “healing crises” rarely happen to my patients, and they are usually the result of misdiagnosis resulting in overtreatment. (This normally occurs when the patient turns out to be unexpectedly frail.)
Usually, the patient comes back, tells me he or she got worse, I try something lighter, and he or she gets better. It’s a little embarrassing for me, but generally an easily recoverable error.
On this occasion, the patient (I’ll follow the naming convention at this blog and give him the fake name “JOE”) was not frail. Diagnostically, everything indicated a body capable of easily handling strong treatment. He was a big fellow and in apparently good health. I treated him to the best of my ability.
A few days later, I received a furious phone call from JOE. Some aggravation of muscular pain had made it dif?cult for him to enjoy his weekend.
I was morti?ed. JOE was the last person I would have expected to have such a severe reaction. At the time, I had no other theoretical models for explaining this result, so I assumed that I had made colossal errors in diagnosis and treatment.
Geesh, could this get worse?
It was at this point in the conversation, when I was feeling like a complete idiot, that JOE threatened to sue me.
This was my First time at the rodeo” with litigation threats, and I wasn’t sure what to do. So I just apologized profusely until he hung up.
Then I slumped back into my chair, broke into a cold sweat, and spent the next 20 minutes feeling like I had been run over by a train.
During this 20 minutes my intellect went into overdrive, analyzing every angle of the situation, replaying every part of our interactions ad nauseum — trying to make the pieces ?t.
Soon after this, my physical health went into rapid decline. My energy levels went through the ?oor. I began to experience overwhelming nausea, vomiting and headaches upon waking in the morning. (Funnily enough, this set of acute symptoms only seemed to happen on work days.)
Mild exercise made me ill. Sex became exhausting. Any mildly stressful event drastically increased the chance that I would wake up feeling awful the next morning.
My gut became very sensitive. When I woke up sick, I didn’t just feel nauseous. There was an emotional component to it that never made sense: A heavy, bleak, depressed feeling, almost suicidal.
The prospect of going into work ?lled me with a kind of existential dread.
Not magnetizing money, either
I lost a lot of money during this period. Days when I had many patients were the days I was most likely to wake up too sick to get out of bed. Unfortunately, there are no sick-leave bene?ts for sole proprietors like me.
My illness conducted many short-term but cumulatively expensive surgical strikes on my income.
At one point, my immune system became so depressed that a relatively simple viral gut infection spread to my heart, and I was hospitalized with pericarditis.
For those who haven’t experienced pericarditis, I can tell you that it feels a LOT like a heart attack. Even after I was discharged, chest pain and tightness persisted for months.
At this point I had to make radical changes to how I lived.
- I reduced my clinic hours.
- I stopped doing most housework.
- I did virtually no exercise.
- I ate extremely carefully.
- I began taking daily herbal and acupuncture treatments for months at a time.
Treatments that would normally be weekly affairs for healthier people became a daily necessity just to stay a?oat. I tried a lot of different things in the hope of a cure, with little success. I started entertaining the notion that I would never recover.
Could it help, cutting a cord of attachment?
I began to think about whether or not Rose could help me. Although Rose is not a physical healer, I was willing to try anything even tangentially related at this point. I had a hunch that STUFF related to con?dence issues at work was a worthwhile area of investigation.
During an Energy Spirituality session with Rose, I indicated that I had a candidate for cutting a cord of attachment, this patient JOE.
If you are not familiar with the concept of cutting cords of attachment, I strongly recommend you read Rose’s FAQ about cord-cutting.
Now that I know you know what a cord of attachment is, I’m going to walk you through this one of mine.
Overview of my session of Energy Spirituality
Here come the Energy Spirituality session’s “Baseball card” statistics.
Session Intention: To Have More Con?dence At Work
Candidate for Cutting a Cord of Attachment: JOE
Amount of Background Information Rose Received Before Cutting the Cord: Basics about JOE’s phone call. Nothing about my physical health problems.
Cord Yuckiness Index (How bad is this cord?): 10 out of 10 possible points
Number Of Incidents In Cord Dialogue: 2
Cord Location: Forehead, with extensive interior roots reaching into my gastrointestinal system. (This is Very Important).
And, ?nally, the most interesting part, the…
Cord Dialogue Sequence is part of what Rose recorded when doing the 12 Steps to Cut Cords of Attachment(R). After she wrote it down, she read it out to me for validation. Because she gave me an electronic recording of the session, I was able to transcribe the whole set of Cord Items.
“Cord Dialogue” means what, exactly, is the nature of the pathological pattern contained in the cord.
Cord Dialogue is a sequence of energies between client (like me) and the cordee (like Joe). This sequence is what repeats in a person’s aura and subconscious mind 24/7, usually for the rest of a person’s life. Here is what I used to have.
First Incident in the Cord Dialogue: Phone call with JOE.
1. (JOE): Threatening to sue me.
2. (Me): Scared.
3. (Me): “My sacred work is in danger.”
4. (Me): “My livelihood/human life is in danger.”
5. (Me): Feeling guilty.
6. (Me): Wondering “Could it be my fault?”
7. (Me): “I know better” but still scared.
8. (Me): Desperate to handle the situation on the phone well.
9. (JOE): Rage.
10. (JOE): Vindictive. Actively trying to exact punishment. Cruel intent.
11. (JOE): Hatred (A part of the underlying imbalance that was being corrected by treatment).
12. (JOE): Struggling to rebalance — using hatred to jump-start his old way of being.
That’s what Rose told me. My reaction?
Item 11 was a major learning experience for me. I am aware that some acupuncturists primarily focus on emotional or spiritual healing. I don’t.
I’m sure that some emotional healers who use acupuncture get good results, but this application never resonated with me. Once I was exposed to Rose’s work in the ?eld of Energy Spirituality, using physically-oriented means for emotional/spiritual healing began to look (to me) like using a wrench to eat soup.
Sure, you can do it, but it might be a bit slower than a tool that is custom-built for the job. (And seriously, just go get a spoon out of the cutlery drawer!)
Before I continue, for any acupuncturists who may be reading, I want to acknowledge that Chinese Medical Theory considers the relationship between emotions and physical illness to be extremely important. However, I do consider emotional issues in my diagnostic process — I just don’t hold myself out as an emotional healer.
Except for the empath factor
I did not realize something Very Important:
Despite having no intention to provide signi?cant emotional healing, I was providing it anyway.
According to Rose, who has done aura reading research on me in some of our sessions, this is inherent in my work as an acupuncturist. It is apparently not inherent in every acupuncturist’s work to the same extent, but it is in mine.
I don’t fully understand the mechanics of this yet. (This might be worth a research session with Rose, I think).
The practical upshot of this?
It turns out that I did not misdiagnose or overtreat JOE from a Chinese Medicine perspective. What I did was to unintentionally move large amounts of hate and STUFF out of JOE. I didn’t know this would happen, so I couldn’t warn him about it.
Unprepared, JOE wasn’t ready for it; he found it so troubling an experience that it manifested as two days of physical pain and in?ammation.
Because I didn’t know about this way of explaining some negative treatment reactions, I just assumed that I had made a terrible mistake. We’ll look at how that played out in the second half of the cord of attachment
Before we ?nish with this incident, let’s consider what JOE got out of all this:
I would say that JOE had two major objectives during this phonecall.
- The ?rst was punitive (See Item 10) — JOE blamed me for his pain, and he wanted to make me hurt as well.
Regarding that, what can I say but, “Well done JOE!”? “Mission Accomplished. You got me, JOE. You hurt me roughly a thousand times as much as you think I hurt you. A gold star effort.”
What was JOE’s other objective, though? Let’s look again at the last item of Cord Dialogue in this portion of my ex-cord of attachment:
- 12. (JOE): Struggling to rebalance — using hatred to jump-start his old way of being.
JOE wasn’t ready to lose all that hate. JOE needed his hatred back in him to feel comfortable. (Although, I think his de?nition of comfortable might be a bit of a worry ;-))
By deliberately menacing me, JOE found a way to re-establish the hatred in his body. I don’t know if he was fully successful in meeting his second objective.
For his sake, and for the sake of everyone he is close to, I hope he mostly failed on this one.
Second Incident in the Cord Dialogue: The 20 minutes I spent slumped in my chair after the phonecall
13. (Me): Analyzing and replaying with my intellect. Trying to ?gure out “WTF!?”
14. (Me): Trying to understand every aspect including, “What I did wrong.”
15. (Me): Trying not to let this bother me.
16. (Me): My mind chugging along on its own: A combination of: anxiety, intellect, no ready answer to the problem.
17. (Me): Bringing back the subtle connection made during radial-artery pulse diagnosis.
Note: I have several empath talents. If you are not sure exactly what I mean by empath, please read Rose’s FAQ on Empath Empowerment(R).
Empath gifts I have that are relevant to this case study are Physical Intuition, Physical Oneness, Emotional Oneness, and Spiritual Oneness. I am also a Medical Empath, which is different from the better known term, “medical intuitive,” a term made famous by Carolyn Myss.
Some of my diagnostic procedures, particularly pulse diagnosis, can trigger unskilled empath merge. The way empath gifts work, when one switches on, all of them switch on. The attempt to gain knowledge as a Medical Empath was especially likely to switch on the empath gifts for me, back in the day.
Despite the physical nature of the procedures themselves, remember, my gifts included:
- Emotional Oneness (Taking on the emotional experience of the other person and experiencing that as though the feelings belonged to me) and
- Spiritual Oneness (Taking on the energetic and spiritual plight of JOE, which I then translated into language of my deepest existential pain, while having the energies reverberate through my subconscious mind and aura).
- Having the pain process, and stuck energies, lodge in my digestive system.
At the time this incident got into my cord of attachment to JOE, I was an unskilled empath and unaware of how frequently (and for how long a duration) I was merging with my very ill patients. This was another MAJOR factor in my very poor health at the beginning of my career.
18. (Me): Taking on some of the other hatred patterns elsewhere in his system.
19. (Me): A process-related Cord Item. (Most Cord Items simply have content, but sometimes a Cord Item contains a mechanism, what Rose sometimes calls an “energetic subroutine.”) This Cord Item was about a cord-speci?c vulnerability which allowed the extensive interior roots of the cord to form inside my digestive organs.
This pattern was a sequence that involved:
- My feeling guilty
- A desire to make restitution/expiation
- Receiving JOE’s rage on an ongoing basis, up to a ton per day
Also related, I’m sure, were my lack of empath skills at the time this Cord Item was installed. Plus I lacked other skills of energetic hygiene, e.g., No skills yet for Spiritual Cleansing and Protection — again, I have included another FAQ at the Rose Rosetree website if you don’t know what I mean by this last bit.
Here’s a revolting reminder
Again, for those new to cords of attachment, as you read the numbered Cord Dialogue items, remember that this sequence (with all of its attendant negative emotions) played out in my subconscious mind and also in my digestive organs at least once a day.
On the days where it made me ill, in hindsight, the sequence in that cord of attachment would have replayed several times a day.
And now for the good part
Despite the fact that Energy Spirituality is not designed to treat physical health issues, nor was physical healing speci?cally sought in the session, by cutting this cord of attachment, Rose indirectly facilitated a major physical healing.
In this case, the nature of the astral debris combined with its distribution throughout my physical organs, created a raft of physical symptoms that could only be cured via spiritual means — removing the energetic STUFF where it kept repeating within me, 24/7.
Logical consequences of this cord-cutting
In the month since Rose facilitated cutting this cord of attachment, my energy levels have shot back up. My capacity for work has increased enormously. The nausea and headaches have stopped completely, despite a newly-increased clinical workload (and signi?cant resumption of housework).
I have worked with Rose to develop the skills and understanding to close off the vulnerability that exacerbated the impact of this cord of attachment to do such devastating damage.
As an acupuncturist, I also now prepare my patients more thoroughly for the possibility that they may experience signi?cant emotional releasing (or temporary aggravation of their complaint) as a result of treatment.