Here comes Anita’s very personal response. I added only the usual headings, links, minor edits for clarity. Go, ANITA!
Enlightenment Answers. What Changed?
In a practical sense, it does not look that different on the surface. I graduated from medical school, completed residency, and am now in fellowship training. I moved from one state to another when I completed my residency in order to start a clinical fellowship.
In a spiritual sense, life has shifted after Enlightenment.
JILL ERIN and DAVID have written incredibly beautifully and articulately about what that experience has been like for them. They have written about seeing the underlying beauty in every experience, no matter how mundane, of feeling gratitude, the experience of a timeless Self expressing itself through this current human incarnation.
I feel that I am an initiate into Enlightenment, with a great deal to learn still. I very much have emotional experiences and dont feel at peace during every waking moment. I do feel an underlying sense of peace pervading my life, regardless of what is happening on the surface.
I feel that my relationships with people have changed in a subtle way. Im not detached in any way, but the things that used to trigger me to get upset dont trigger me as much or as often. This is particularly true of my relationship with my mother. We still have disagreements, but the way that we relate to each other and argue has changed.
I still have a lot of intense experiences, but STUFF does not stick.
ROSE can attest to this and describe this even better than I can. (ROSE, perhaps a future post on this topic? STUFF what it is, how it accumulates, how it sticks to auras, how to heal it. Youve written about this before, but it sounds like Blog Buddies might want to hear about it more explicitly in the context of pre- and post-Enlightenment?)
Enlightenment Answers. Healing Needed?
Yes, I had a lot of healing to be done! A lot of emotional and spiritual experiences that were painful but ultimately woke me up.
I am a molecular empath in the field of medicine, so these experiences were intense and powerful.
It took me a decade to complete medical school because of all of my experiences. (Usually it takes four years if one goes straight through, from start to finish.)
I sought out healing and did my version of what Rose affectionately calls a “Screaming prayer. Seems to me, I was led to Rose because of this.
I started working with Rose long before she started writing about Householder Enlightenment. Or how Energy Spirituality might accelerate the development into Enlightenment.
Like Rose, I think I was seeking healing to perfect myself, not knowing that what I was seeking is what she now calls Householder Enlightenment.
I had an intense need to understand something greater than this human life. Sensing there might be something more, something behind what appeared to be the veil of human life.
But I didnt know what that was. How to do it. Or how to touch that kind of experience — in a way that was directly relevant to me personally.
Yet I knew that there must be a way to do it. And teachers out there who could teach me.
After all, spiritual leaders had been writing about spiritual experiences and evolution for eons! All I had to do was see bookshelves lined with books like Autobiography of a Yogi, the many books by His Holiness the Dalai Lama, articles in Tricycle magazine, and more
I sought to understand the core unifying principles of spiritual growth and Enlightenment. Principles that transcended any particular organized religion or spiritual theoretical orientation.
I guess I aspired to be what Narayan Singh calls a spiritual politician or spiritual warrior. You see, I wanted to be a spiritual physicist. And understand, in a rigorous way, what the experience of Enlightenment actually entailed. I feel that part of this was driven by being a molecular empath.
Enlightenment was never an explicit goal of mine, but I know that I was seeking deep healing and peace, not just self-improvement.
At that time, I also had a deep desire to connect with or have experiences with many others who are now on ROSEs Enlightenment list (e.g., Amma the hugging saint, Tantra Maat, and many others). This list did not exist at that time.
Enlightenment Answers. Life Now?
This question was not asked explicitly, but is a natural corollary to the first two questions.
It is very intense. I am learning and evolving at lightning quick speed, even for me, and the depth and intensity of these experiences is profound (Rose can attest to this!).
Some of the others on the Enlightenment life list have talked about karma, burning karma, healing karma.
That is what my human experience feels like.
I dont know if one can change ones karma, but I think we evolve in order to heal it.
The rate at which we grow and evolve in particular lifetimes can vary. Rose has talked about virtual reincarnation.
She has also talked about lifetimes in which a soul decides to take a break between more challenging lifetimes. Those lifetimes may be more peaceful, with fewer human experiences or challenges that might push more rapid and intense spiritual growth and evolution.
I hope this helps.
It is so hard to put into words what is really a mind/body/spirit experience.
Your questions, as well as Roses posts, guest posts, and comments on the blog. They really led me to pause. And to consider how I could articulate my experiences in a way that others might be able to understand.
Sharing my Enlightenment Answers in a way that might be able to help others, too.