For me, spiritual addiction started when I was 16. I was so, so sensitive. I felt everything that other people felt and found it very very hard to live in objective reality. Hard to live as a human being.
One of my gifts as an empath is that I am a molecular empath. Which may have made it even harder since, back then, I lacked skills as an empath.
Secret struggles, at first
Every day was a struggle; I only felt safe when I was with myself. I hated school. Even though I was considered as one of the cool ones (but also the very silent one), I felt so very different from everybody else.
I couldnt understand why I had come here. Very painful!
Finding a spiritual teacher
Then my mother told me about Jiddu Krishnamurti. (Her psychologist had given her a book by J.K.)
Immediately I dove into Krishnamurtis teachings. Somehow I understood every single word of his very complex way of describing life. I loved it could relate to it so well.
But it also made me feel dizzy somehow. As entering a different reality.
This did not make me feel more safe in objective reality. Quite the opposite.
- I felt understood by K. While reading his books, and talking to my mums psychologist about him, I felt safer.
- But as soon as I left Krishnamurti’s world, it returned: The usual pain and horror of being human.
When it became time to interpret life less
I continued with Krishnamurti and several other spiritual teachers until last year. By then I felt so overwhelmed by all the knowledge I had inside of myself (given to me by the spiritual teachers, mixed with my own spirituality).
Then I stopped.
Now I wish to know less.
Less of this knowledge on life… that maybe hasnt reached me through my own real experiences but through other peoples teachings.
I wish to meet life in a more unexpecting, innocent way, not thinking that every word or action (my own or others) holds a special meaning, something to analyze, to put my finger on.
At 28 I am finally understanding more of the downside of doing all that spiritual seeking, all that interpretation of my human experiences.
All that emphasis on spiritual seeking may have made me a victim
Looking back, I would say that I am thankful for the comfort and insight and understanding all of those spiritual teachings gave me.
Now I want to integrate what’s true for me. And do this in a balanced way. Living as human being, hand in hand with my spirit.
Maybe I was a good victim because I felt so unsafe as a human being.
On Teal Swan[Note from Rose: As a contest winner, ISABELLE requested that I read the aura of Teal Swan. You can read the results here: Aura reading Teal Swan. A contest prize for ISABELLE.]
I was for some time part of the Teal Swan Facebook Group.
What did I observe there?
It gave me a strange feeling. I could see how the other members of her Facebook Group were spiritually addicted, that they could not live in objective reality at all.
Seeing and feeling this gave me an insight. I was one of them.
I would be in my room, listening and watching to Teal Swan and all these other spiritual teacher. And it made me feel so relaxed.
I didnt want to do anything else, just take it all in. Like a drug maybe? Yes.
I dont want to say anything bad about Teal Swan as a person. I do find her very interesting, even fascinating. She has some very good points.
Reading your detailed reading of Teal Swan’s aura has made me question the words that I chose to describe Teal Swan in my request for you to read her aura. Words like “Coming from another dimension.” And that is supposed to be a good thing?
A Little Postscript from Rose
Big thanks to you, ISABELLE, for this teaching tale about your own emergence from spiritual addiction. Discernment is different from judging — an important distinction for all New Age Consumers.
I also thank you, ISABELLE, is that you sent the photo you did as the basis for my aura reading of Teal Swan, who bills herself as “a spiritual catalyst.” That photograph isn’t recent, I suspect. Why?
Since the time of that photograph, she has shifted into extreme spiritual addiction. This opinion doesn’t come from reading her aura in more photographs but from work done with clients, removing cords of attachment that some of my clients have had to Teal Swan.
In extreme spiritual addiction, cords of attachment become more virus-like. Removal is really a job for someone trained professionally in Rosetree Energy Spirituality (such as you can find at the SESSIONS tab at the top of this page).
What can you co on your own to protect yourself from extreme spiritual addiction?
These days, since The Shift into The Age of Energy, it behooves us to avoid energies, transmissions, initiations, attunements, energetic downloads, ceremonies, etc. that aim to link a person to higher dimensions or life beyond earth. Unfortunately, in this new Age of Energy, it is easy for someone to move into extreme spiritual addiction right along with the idealistic human acting as the catalyst, etc.
You might wish to keep in mind, Blog-Buddies:
- God and other Divine Beings are not beyond earth. They are right here.
- Adding input from exotic-sounding astral energies — from spirits, extra-terrestrial beings, etc. — is not required to help you evolve spiritually.
- The astral beings in your own personal Angel Team (guardian angel, spirit guides, etc.) do not require your begging them for guidance. They support you just fine without that. (You can learn more about this from Use Your Power of Command for Spiritual Cleansing and Protection.)
- Divine help can be part of your life in the background. Also front and center during your Technique Time.
- Just avoid practices that aim to make you holier-than-thou or other human beings
You won’t just enjoy a happier life, without bouncing back and forth between being a human being while believing yourself to be spiritually superior.
You can move forward more rapidly on your spiritual path to Enlightenment. Human-based spirituality isn’t flashy. But it can get you There.