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Incubator Aura Research

Incubator Aura Research. It seemed like being in jail, solitary confinement. Yet the purpose was glorious.

Incubator Aura Research. Today’s post shares results from the first research I’ve ever done into what it was like for a newborn to live in an incubator. While her survival was touch-and-go, what happened with that soul’s consciousness?

Each of these stories is different, but all of us incubator survivors have something in common: Life experience that’s about as unpleasant as life can be. And yet both LIANE and I found this aura reading research to be intensely illuminating, tremendously uplifting. And I’m hoping you will too, Blog-Buddies.

Because, graciously, LIANE offered to explore some aura research that would later be published right here, at this blog. We connected via a phone session. As a result, what have I got for you?

  • First of all, I’ll share Part One of that research.
  • For the follow-up blog post, you can hear a recording we made of Part Two.
  • Why no recording for Part One? I’ll share the details with you towards the end of today’s article.

Incubator Aura Research. It Always Begins with a Story.

Incubators are a life-saving technology, but neonatal care was still quite primitive in the 1960’s when LIANE was born. Emphasized most?  Keep the kid alive — which meant a thoroughly sterile environment, away from people and seldom touched by other human beings.

Although every birth is weird, to some extent, that’s got to be one of the stranger ways to start an incarnation. Her father didn’t see her until Day 3 after LIANE’S birth. And no touching or crooning there. He looked at her through a glass wall into the neonatal unit at the hospital.

As for Mom, she didn’t visit until LIANE was into Day 5. Another “warm-&-loving embrace” — consisting of peering at her baby through a glass wall.

Actually, the Pre-Incubator Tale Was Exceptionally Harsh

In a painful plot twist, quite revealing about LIANE’S mother, how did LIANE learn the story of her birth? Through a book.

Never through a sweet mother-daughter, cuddly conversation. Nope. Not a word like that. Instead, LIANE’S late mother published a memoir. (LIANE told me, she kept this memoir for 15 years before she dared to read it.) And that’s when the previously-mentioned details were disclosed.

So what led to LIANE’S solitary ride in an incubator? Because her father’s health insurance was due to expire on a certain date. For financial reasons, the birth was hastened by a couple of weeks.

And the manner of birth is one I’d certainly never heard of, have you? The doctor dosed up LIANE’s mother with quinine. Talk about hastening the birth! Labor was instantaneous, a brutally uncomfortable birthing process — perhaps akin to the prison term “hard labor.”

Instantly LIANE’s mother found herself in the final phase of labor, heaving through intense contractions. If you’ve ever given birth, you know how much fun any of these contractions can be. But usually the mother builds up to them; although not enjoying the pain, at least developing a certain screaming tolerance. Not this time, though.

Wham, LIANE was born. And that harsh birthing process was so horrendous, this baby was born limp. Meaning, to put it less politely, LIANE baby was born dead. Medical staff resuscitated her and immediately placed her right into the incubator.

No “Happy Birthday, Darling Baby.” Quite the Opposite.

Ouch! I have a dim memory of something comparable, starting off the life without a single loving touch — as recounted near at the start of my memoir, Bigger than All the Night Sky.

You’d never know that LIANE survived all that. In the recording made of our final bit of research you’ll hear a voice I know well, from a handful of RES sessions:

  • Emotionally, a warm voice, the voice of an empath,
  • Energetically, a radiant voice, due to living in Age of Awakening Enlightenment,
  • Beyond that a down-to-earth voice, combining power and patience, and sweetened by un-selfconscious compassion.

Incidentally, it’s got to be another very intense story, how LIANE’S mother suffered. Her father, too.

Any parent who comes so close to losing a baby undergoes so much pain, and such personal varieties of pain. Yet this is widely recounted on the Internet.

Whereas it takes aura reading — or something comparable — to give a voice to infant’s suffering… and, in this case, magnificent spiritual evolution.

Without the energetic literacy skills of RES, I wonder:

Who else speaks for those babies, and what they go through? A child fresh from God. And a child with an eternal soul’s comprehension yet, simultaneously, a newborn animal in that fragile human body: Born with a human’s need to be touched and loved, to be comforted after the birth, to be held and feel connected to other human animals.

But what were the odds of receiving any of this… as an incubator baby, back in the day? Zilch.

Okay, on to LIANE’S Incubator Aura Research

The part about how I co-created this with Divine help? I’ll leave that to the end of this very long post. Here I’ll just say that I used advanced techniques of energetic literacy, RES-style. We spent well over an hour, researching these parts of LIANE’S aura:

  1. Root Chakra Databank for Presence in the Room
  2. Root Chakra Databank for Connection to Physical Body
  3. Heart Chakra Databank for Emotional Self-Awareness
  4. Third Eye Chakra Databank for Connection to Spiritual Source

First, I researched a “baseline.” How those chakra databanks were doing at the time of the aura reading.

Mostly I noticed the quiet glory of someone in Age of Awakening Enlightenment. Every chakra databank working, and each gift of the soul being expressed in an everyday way.

Always, for someone in Enlightenment, with the combo of Stage 3 Energetic Literacy and experience, one can discern a sturdy and strong awareness of the Divine.

Preparing for Incubator Aura Research, this Grabbed My Attention

When it came to LIANE’S emotional and spiritual connection to her physical body, I discovered an immense collection of scar tissue.

Ah, scar tissue, my favorite thing to ever find in a chakra databank! (Apart from Enlightenment, of course. Not everyone manages to move into Enlightenment, but many of us develop scar tissue of one kind or another, hooray!)

Scar tissue can occur in any chakra databank. It means, “This soul has accomplished even more than was hoped for… when setting up the initial Life Contract.

In this case, what was the significance of all that scar tissue? Seemed to me, Liane had succeeded in adapting beautifully to living in her body. Meaning, what? Developing a default positioning of her consciousness, a “body first” way of living.

By contrast, it’s entirely possible to live, and function as recognizably sane, yet still not have much awareness of one’s own body. (In fact, the incubator grad who’s writing this article had a very similar struggle, one of the themes in Bigger than All the Night Sky.)

After I described the quality of LIANE’S own struggle and, by now, easy adjustment to being human… down to her fingernails…

Then LIANE told me, “When I look at my life, there are two parts. Before RES and after. It has made that big of a difference. ROSE, after I started having RES sessions, I moved into my body.”

Awe!

Incubator Aura Research Began with Agony

You see, Blog-Buddies, I had to choose which energetic holograms to pull out. In Part Two, the recording that survived, I investigated LIANE’S moment of greatest joy within the incubator.

While Part One focused on her moment of greatest agony. Well, co-creating with LIANE’S choice of Divine help, here’s what we found.

In terms of her presence, LIANE was stretched thin. Because, in this particular moment, she had traveled in consciousness. Pounding on heaven’s door, as it were. She demanded to talk to God about having to continue as this baby.

Throughout pregnancy, and sometimes for the first year, a soul usually has the right to terminate the lifetime. Based on research I’ve done, helping clients, this spiritual choice is the cause of many a miscarriage and Sudden Infant Death Syndrome.

Usually we souls have the right to back out, despite signing a Life Contract. Because sometimes the reality of the human experience is so much harsher than we ever imagined, even if we’ve had innumerable previous incarnations in human form.

But LIANE didn’t even seem to “rate” an audience with God. Instead she could only make contact with a cosmic flunky, a not-that-bright and not-that-caring and not-that-evolved celestial gatekeeper. This angel told her that she wasn’t allowed to meet with God because she had to go through with the life contract.

Anything else? God wanted this soul in anguish to know:

  1. She’d get through this time.
  2. And she would have the strength to fulfill her Life Contract
  3. And later they could talk about it, but not now. Sorry.
  4. Now go on back and continue with that lifetime. “You have no choice.”

Incubator Aura Research Revealed Such Sweetness in LIANE

Because she didn’t become a hater. Nor even bitter.

And she kept on loving God anyway, even when she didn’t understand what was happening. Or why she was being treated with such unusual harshness.

Usually, up thorough age five, a human child can freely travel in consciousness to visit with God. As in, “Whenever you want.” Not as in “Never.”

Most Notable, Though, Was This Part of the Incubator Aura Research

Ever hear the expression “roasted seeds of karma”? In her aura, and I suspect karmically too, LIANE got fried.

During this incident of agony, unbeknownst to herself at the time, she completed many a vow she had taken in other lifetimes.

The kind of vow that renunciates take, when committing to life as a nun, a monk, a priest.

The terrible vow of a renunciate goes like this:

Strip away everything, God. As long as I’m human, I want you to take every single thing away. Every human comfort or pleasure, companionship or friendship; either having a human to love me or having me desire to love any other person.

Every. Single. Thing. Take it away. Sit it can be just you and me, God. That hardest kind of life means one thing only, the thing that makes any sacrifice worthwhile: I want to offer you the purest love that can be. 

Many of Us Make Such Vows

And here’s the funny thing. Even if we change our minds later — and I’ve helped RES clients who are former nuns, monks, and priests… as well as a couple of recluses who were living that renunciate life at the time of my aura reading.

Even if, post-vow, we change our minds within the lifetime.

And even post-lifetime, moving on to other householder incarnations — plenty of them.

Even then, such a vow, once set in motion, must be fulfilled… before we can reach Enlightenment.

LIANE, now in Enlightenment, had to live the fulfillment of that vow. Which she did, while in the incubator. That moment of agony was the culmination of it all, seemingly rejected even by God.

And she accepted this, as shown by her aura, with the sweetest resignation. And, of course, not knowing that this was happening, and she was being freed up in the kindest way possible.

I wonder how many incubator babies are living that way for similar reasons. Of course, there are many other reasons for that tough karma of “Incubator Baby.”

Birth and death are both like that, right? Sometimes the most awful things happen. And, could be, those awful-seeming things are meant-to-be’s, brought into life as unintended consequences of our human choices. Bitter experiences, coming from choices that seemed so beautiful, once upon a time.

Let’s Add Background Info in the Comments Section

Blog-Buddies, I’ve been writing this post for hours. And you’ve been reading a LOT, to have gotten this far. Enough already.

Let’s continue in the comments section below.

Do you have any curiosity about:

  • How this reading was done?
  • How it different completely from any kind of psychic reading or channeled reading?
  • And do you wonder why I didn’t just play the audio recording for you?

Ask away, and I’ll answer. Here I just want to thank LIANE so much for her generosity in allowing me to share this with you.

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  1. 1
    Kylie says:

    Wow, fascinating blog Rose. Thank you Liane, for volunteering.

    What a tough childhood it must have been. I’m so glad you found RES. This reading makes me curious about what renunciate lifetimes I might have had.

  2. 2
    Kylie says:

    Also, I am glad that you are sharing this information about miscarriage and SID, Rose.

    I know that many parents blame themself, and suffer so much anguish when a child dies.

  3. 3
    Liane says:

    Thank you, Rose, for this touching post.

    My heart is feeling all sorts of things.

  4. 4
    Liane says:

    After this session I thought it would take some time for things to settle down; that I would be emotional after learning of God’s refusal to see me.

  5. 5
    Liane says:

    While I am still a little (emphasis on little) stunned, I am far from emotional, unless deep joy counts.

    This was God’s way of doing me the favor of forcing me to get on with this one life, rough beginning and all. That’s simply the way it had to be.

  6. 6
    Liane says:

    Even though I never gave up on love, I have often felt love gave up on me.

    And yet…. here I am. Happy and whole.

  7. 7
    Liane says:

    What? Happy and whole?

    Amazingly, yes.

  8. 8
    Liane says:

    Me too, Kylie. I’m glad I found RES! The community of RES is something very special. A gift, indeed.

    Yes. LIke for many, childhood was rough. An upside is the much deep compassion I feel for what it took to gain so much beautiful scar tissue. My private badge of honor.

  9. 9
    An Avid Reader says:

    I found this incredibly moving.

    Thank you for writing this, Rose. Thank you so much, Liane, for allowing Rose to share this part of your story.

  10. 10
    Brittany says:

    Thank you so much for sharing. I love hearing other people’s stories.

    I am living a new life after RES as well. A much better life than before RES.

  11. 11
    An Avid Reader says:

    Am in the midst of re-reading this post again as I was struck by so many of parts of it and it has also provoked a number of questions.

    The first thing that really got to me is that Liane was not even allowed to talk to God when she was in such difficult circumstances! That sounds unbelievably difficult!

  12. 12
    An Avid Reader says:

    The other thing that I was struck by is all the information about vows! And how horrible a life such vows would create!

  13. 13
    Liane says:

    Thank you Avid Reader and Brittany.

    I agree, one of my favorite things on this blog is learning how other lives are being changed through RES.

  14. 14
    Liane says:

    I had an aha today. I never once considered myself a victim of anything associated with being isolated in an incubator as an infant. Learning about it made me sad for my baby self, but it was a life saving measure, not an intentional form of torture.

  15. 15
    Liane says:

    There was a time when I would have leaned into a bit of self-pity for feeling so alone and alienated… so different from everyone else.

    Blaming that on my childhood, like so many of us have the right to do. But no. Here’s my aha. (Rose said they would come : )

  16. 16
    Liane says:

    I, at the very beginning of Life as Liane, made that terrible renunciate vow.

    The one where I was willing to sacrifice all in order to still offer up my love for God. And God knows I sacrificed it all. This was my doing.

  17. 17
    Liane says:

    Bam. Here is where the responsibility lies.

    This is why compassion for my self needs to flow. Rose, I get it. At least this much. Thank you…. through tears.

  18. 18

    Thanks so much, everyone, for your comments so far. I’d like to share a few thoughts about this research.

    #1. Gee, I wish the recording had come out properly, and I didn’t have to write all this up two days later, having made no notes…. LIANE, please hear this. From what I understand, you agreed to complete karma from past lives (lives, plural) in which you had lived as a vow-making religious person.

  19. 19

    #2. When it comes to choosing to live as a monk or nun, that’s a beautiful kind of lifetime.

    Only it’s often terribly hard, as I have learned from clients.

    I’ll sure be discussing this sort of thing as a part of the Accelerate Enlightenment workshop this coming weekend.

  20. 20

    In the long run, though, as an eternal soul… you keep the beauty and the learning from every lifetime. Including the renunciate ones.

    And, as you wisely noted, LIANE, maybe you gain more compassion for yourself. Opening up your heart for everyone, because whatever we choose in life? For that we must pay the price.

  21. 21

    #3. AVID READER, I wish that you also — along with everyone who’s read this post — had heard the original aura reading, in its full duration, with all the nuances.

    Regarding your Comment #12, I agree. Taking religious vows is a great and terrible commitment, but it does lead to spiritual evolution. You know, here at the Learning Planet.

  22. 22

    Seems to me, learning about reincarnation would make a great requirement before the vow taking. And not only a ceremony or two, related to the vow taking, but all the years of prayer and requests.

    Also, in some Catholic orders, all the starvation and whipping.

  23. 23

    Karma builds up and, sooner or later, one lifetime or another, we’ll get our wish to be really, truly alone. For a time at least.

    Related to Comment #11, when we have set up something like that, we can’t expect God to rescue us. Like LIANE, I know a bit about that, as you can read in “Bigger than All the Night Sky,” in the section about going back “home” at the age of five.

  24. 24

    You know, AVID READER, here at Earth School there are many variations on “As scary as it gets.” Yet the whole point is spiritual growth.

    I have it on good authority, many a soul has never incarnated even once on earth, because they didn’t want to suffer as intensely as we do sometimes. Yet those of us who do venture into human lifetimes, again and again, do this for good reasons: To learn and to serve.

  25. 25
    An Avid Reader says:

    Hi Liane,
    I am in awe of you that you persevered and came out on the other side of all this and became enlightened to boot. I think it is extraordinary. I think this is such an amazing achievement on your part both as a soul and as Liane.

  26. 26
    Lindsey says:

    Fascinating research here. Thank you Liane for your willingness to share and Rose as well!

    Good job both of you! Sounds like you have gone above and beyond all that you set out to do! Both of you are such shiny lights for sure! Thanks so much!

  27. 27
    G. says:

    Liane, thank you for sharing. This really does make me curious about the impact of early life experiences and how that shapes us into adulthood.

    How often do we get to see life from this perspective? It’s rare. Rose, these insights are really a gem.

    I have 2 kids that started life in incubators and I’m often amazed by them.

  28. 28

    G., sorry to hear about those two babies of yours who endured incubator life — not so much for them, because when that happens (seems to me) it’s one of life’s meant-to-be’s.

    But what a hurdle for you and your husband to leap over and still trust life to be good!

  29. 29

    Here’s an idea to stretch you and other Blog-Buddies, related to Comment #27. Based on having done many RES sessions, guess what?

    The main deal with early life experiences (involving incubators or not) is how often souls choose to get icky karma out of the way. Pay it back when we’re still relatively resourceful energetically, fresh from God.

  30. 30

    Understandably, in collective consciousness, humanity is steeped in ideas from Freud and his successors that there are “formative years” and so early childhood experiences shape us.

    Really, G., I don’t think so. Rather, we clear out a bunch o’ karma that was baked into the original life contract. We may remember some icky details. But what matters far more is living in the present, using free will and doing our reasonable best to live honorably, choosing personal growth in ways that work for us.

  31. 31

    What really ties some of us to our early years is STUFF. And as you know, STUFF can always, always, always be healed.

  32. 32

    This afternoon, much as I’d like to publish Part Two of this Incubator series, I’m going to put it off until Monday.

    As you may know Aretha Franklin, Queen of Soul, has just made her transition. So today I want to pay respect to her by reading her aura. What a great earth personality out of her collection of soul expressions… as an immortal soul. (At least, that’s how I see it. But you’all don’t have to agree with my belief system to enjoy today’s new blog post.)

  33. 33
    Liane says:

    Thanks again, An Avid Reader, and Lindsey, and G.

    And to Rose, who’s compassion runneth over.

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