SARAH has entered the first full-length entry into our new Contest about Deeper Perception. Prepare to be shocked (maybe). Or maybe not so shocked at all….
What I learned is hard for me to summarize, since it happened somewhere completely separate from my intellect.
I finally let go of my need to love my family. In the process, I actually came to love them in a way I never have before. For the first time in years, I was able to genuinely enjoy a holiday spent with them, free of guilt or disappointment.
With regular perception, a close family
See, my immediate family is very close and loving and always has been supposedly. We all see each other regularly, everyone makes an effort to keep up on each others lives, my parents are still together, etc.
And this sense of family is extremely important to usall of us. It must be. Its some sort of implicit requirement for membership. I dont know how else to explain it.
But theres always been something weird under the surface, like its all a big show. Ive spent years convincing myself that this is all in my head, since Ive never met anyone else who gets this vibe from them. My friends just politely say that they dont really know what I am talking about, so-and-so seems lovely to them.